constant changing fixations

     For as long as I could remember I have always been changing my "favorite" thing to do. I will go through phases of binging tv or anime to weeks of straight reading. This has always been an interesting but neurodivergent habit of mine. The funny thing is this always changes around school time. 

Around the second or third week of each semester, my fixations become less school-friendly and more time draining. Right now the only thing I want to do constantly plays Destiny 2. This is not a homework-friendly habit and also involves having friends who can play.

    I tend to use my current hyper-fixations as rewards for complete tasks especially when covid school was in full bloom. It is hard for me to just sit and do homework or listen to lectures for hours on end. So I tend to have to redirect my attention for 20 minutes at a time so I can still focus on vital school information.

    Hopefully, soon I can go back to just wanting to read or binge shows. Two things which I can do whenever or wherever. As of right now, I must ban myself from games until school tasks are fully finished. This has caused me to draw or paint more. I paint a lot for stress relief but stopped for a long time.

Recently, however, I began painting again because of the documentary I watched called "My kid could paint that". The documentary reminded me that art doesn't have to be clean or perfect and whatever I end up making will bring me joy.